It was during intense suffering that amazing and eternal joy came to me, and by practicing Awakening Joy(TM), you don’t need to suffer again.

My father suffered severe depression, and shot himself. There was intense suffering, his, our families’, and mine. It was my promise to him that this “would not be for nothing.”

That was six or seven years ago. What I found last April was far beyond what I could have imagined.

It was like I backed myself into a corner. I loved someone more than my “self,” and I refused to blame anyone or anything outside of myself for the pain and suffering I was feeling. Feeling deep anguish, cruelly judged, abandoned, misled, unloved, immense loss, and without human dignity, I also came to the end. I did not want to suffer any more. It was no longer an option.

So I went inside, deep inside.